I ’am Ruta. 1450 days ago I have left my home* to look for myself. But every winter I go back to look for the places, for the people, for the life I left behind me. These are the last days of winter 2012. And this is a winter of my life.
(I have built up a relationship with the camera where I transform the act of taking an image into performance for the camera. I pose, I know I am posing and I want you to know that I am posing. My hope is to convey gratitude and sadness. All the pictures take place in my home. These photographs reveal both personal and private aspects of my life. It is an examination of the place where I can close the door to chaos and find peace and assurance of purpose. This is my honest reconnection with the place I escaped once.)