Brooklyn-based multidisciplinary artist Marcelo Gutierrez has unveiled another act in his perennial creative poignance: Hiraeth, a short film built around "imagined memories for a desired life." Its lovely yet peculiar protagonist is played by Gutierrez himself — wholly steeped in wistful romanticism, and enveloped in pearly tones of satin pinks and soft golds.
While deeply submerged in fashion as runway and editorial makeup artist, the Bogotá-born, rising luminary is increasingly prolific as a filmmaker, too; Hiraeth is the latest of several works released in just a few short years.
PAPER caught up with Gutierrez to learn more about the project, and where romance and nostalgia intersect within it.
Can you tell us about the idea behind this film? How did this character develop?
I've always been a big fan of biographies and biopics — a fan of how writing and cinema managed to make an individual's life into something more fantastical in detail. Although the purpose of a biography is to re-tell the story of someone else's life, it's only a matter of time before a sense of cinematic drama and art come into play because there is no way of exactly reliving someone else's story. I'm a strong believer in manifesting things, and that you are the the only writer to the story you want to tell — you are responsible for leaving behind the narrative you want others to read, or in this case, watch. Anything is possible if you believe it so. The character is an amalgamation of my personal beliefs in willpower and my love of delusion. This film really is a prelude to a much larger body of work coming in the future that will continue to explore this idea of rewriting one's own biography — the power of exercising reinvention and imagination for a desired life.
Why Hiraeth? It's a Welsh word, right?
Hiraeth is a Welsh word meaning a homesickness for a home to which you cannot return, a home which maybe never was — the nostalgia, the yearning the grief for the lost places of your past. I discovered this term later into the project, but I was having a hard time coming up with a title for it. Once I did, it made perfect sense. I've felt this feeling so many times. I relate, and many of us do, to this feeling of longing for something you thought was — but was not. A romantic combination of delusion and nostalgia. A kind of delusion that can sometimes involve you imagining memories in your past that perhaps never were — or never were they way you retold them.
I saw this was filmed in 2016; was editing done more recently? Along the way in its production, to your ideas about what you wanted to convey change or evolve?
Correct, I shot this film with Bailey Hikawa and Pablo Tapia-Pla in 2016 while I was working almost full-time as aan au pair to a very wealthy older lady in Chelsea. I was an au pair to her two French Bulldogs... another story for another movie. Bailey flew in from LA and we secretly shot the film in a whole day in the lady's living room while she was on vacation with her two dogs. Editing and most of the dialogue happened actually in the last few months leading up to 2018. I had gone through a really bad breakup right after we shot this film and also had run away from this au pair job (aka maid), so it took me about two years to get myself back in a healthy place mentally. Over the course of this break the message for the film never changed, but the writing did and it came from a much more heartfelt and honest [place]. I'm happy I took a break from it, it's important for me not to rush anything that comes from my soul.
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