Following a prolonged period of difficulty, in 2017 over Christmas, Paul walked down to the beach. He made the choice to kill himself by getting drunk and walking into the sea. His plan was to just feel numb and drift away. Whilst waist deep in the sea he began listening to a podcast featuring Professor Green discussing the suicide of his own father and the effect it had on his life. Paul realised he didn’t want to leave his young son in the same way and rang the number for Calm (the Campaign Against Living Miserably) who helped save his life. As part of Comic Relief Kilimanjaro: The Bigger Red Nose Climb, Shirley Ballas, whose brother committed suicide, went to talk to Paul on the same stretch of beach. These are the photographs that accompany the film and Paul’s story. It's okay to not be okay.