DESOULED (DEMO) - by NickK x Jessica Magoch

The Noisy Brain was created to help encourage people with mental health issues to write and openly share their experiences. We celebrate and embrace ‘ The Noisy Brains’ encouraging them into musical collaborations with an aim to create beautiful pieces of music and art. This simple but important process has the potential to provide a somewhat therapeutic creative outlet. Ultimately, we hope to create a more forgiving world, one lyric, and one song at a time. Lyrics - The Noisy Brain NickK https://linktr.ee/thenoisybrain Music Production JESSICA MAGOCH https://www.instagram.com/jessicamagoch/ Vocal performance: JESSICA MAGOCH https://www.instagram.com/jessicamagoch/ BACKSTORY: This is possibly too dark for a song, but I'll submit it and see what you think... This was written about a year after I came out of hospital (mental health unit in Surrey) and I was frustrated as I felt nothing much had changed, and I was on all these meds, which were sapping my soul - killing my personality. It's pretty raw, but it's the truth. - NickK LYRICS: There’s a part of me that’s died. ‘These meds will help’ they said. They lied. There’s a part of my soul buried deep. A chasm too vast For laughter to seep. The irrepressible has been repressed. The fun has gone, There’s a cavity in my chest. A personality up in the ether. The body is upright; There’s no gas in the meter. I can’t remember the last time I cried. For that you need soul; something inside. My head is a vacant lot; rusting cans, And bottles – shot. I’m a cardboard cut-out, A sense of me. Flimsy. Without density. They filled me with chemicals, Sent me down a track, With a cheery wave: ‘Some day you’ll be back’ Like a politician, Full of false promises; They promised the earth, Paying pills homages. There’s a part of me that’s died. ‘These meds will help’ they said. They lied. © The Noisy Brain 2021