Reflections : Before and After

  • Lucia Rusinakova

Writing is my remedy for sleepless nights. Those lonely moments when the soul is bare naked, those vulnerable times, moments of questioning your own thoughts and decisions. Those confused moments. Moments of truth. Moments of searching for the answers to my quest. Spreading light over the shadows of my insecurities and doubts. Doubting the abilities to make it and make it right. Writing brightens up my hazy sky when the fog settles in, bringing sunshine through those heavy clouds, lifting them up. Strings of our emotions playing the song of our lives. The highs, the lows. Abrupt and long sounds filling up our hearts. Melodies of unwritten stories, floating in front of our eyes. The echoes of our past memories. Loves, successes, failures. Tones of sadness. Joyous overtures. Closing verses. Chorus singing the last refrain.

This book is a collection of “freestyle” poems and short “reflections” written and collected over the last 15+ years. A couple of years ago, I had an idea to put it all into a compilation book format that I could share with the world.

The theme of this book revolves around a significant personal event in my life, dividing it into three sections: Before, Transition, and After. Each chapter features text written during that time, reflecting an overall feel of my emotional state in those periods.

The aim of this piece is to share an intimate view on life and my experiences and hopefully inspire some people to look within themselves and listen to their own inner voice and inspirations. I hope more people can start appreciating their gifts and opportunities and look at the brighter side of things in life, whether positive or negative. We cannot avoid all stressful events and situations in life, but we can decide how we respond to them.
Illustrations by Gina Urazan Razzini